Over the last little while I have been in a bit of a slump. When I came to university I thought I'd be getting my kines degree and didn't think about all the other courses I'd have to take, and to top it all off there is the bit of upgrading I have to do. I think if I had prepared myself during high school for university I would be able to deal with it better. By that I mean taken courses that set me up for what I wanted to do. But, back in high school I had no idea what I wanted to do and had no intention of university. Then I wanted to go so I could play soccer but got scared for the actual school part and backed out. After this I went and got my personal training certificate and I loved it. This is when I decided to go to university and now I am here. I basically came to university with barely any prep and now I am getting a bit overwhelmed. I have to change my attitude around now and start getting pumped up for every class I have and I need to get some better study habits. To me I feel like this is the worst thing right now and all I want to do is work, but I know that it is only going to be 5 years and I will be able to work and have the job that I want. I know I can dig deep and start doing better in my classes and I will probably enjoy it sooner or later. And I am going to need to start doing better because this costs a lot of money so I better sort it out soon.

After I got back from San Jose I got an email from the Kansas City team telling me that my spot is secured for their open tryout in March but I don't think I am going to go because it is going to cost me another grand probably and it's a lot of money to put up for a possible 2 day tryout. What I figure is I wait and just continue to improve and then when I get towards the end of my university career I'll go around and tryout for some pro teams in the states. Maybe go travel over in Europe and tryout for some pro teams over there too. I'm only 19 and still have a lot to learn, but the more I keep playing and the harder I train the more I will improve. I have already noticed some pretty big improvements in myself even since September and I am just going to keep improving. I have been training harder than I ever have before and I've put on around 5 pounds; it looks like it's all in my shoulders but I'm sure I've put it on everywhere.

I can't wait until the snow is gone and I pick up a bike. Get outside to do some biking but I can also get outside to do some running as well. I am starting to get sick of the treadmill and indoor track. Damn snow! Not too much longer though and I'll be playing outdoor soccer again and going for runs and bike rides; that's what it's all about.